day 1

i have high hope for this project. i was excited last night while making this blog. i was stayed up all night from excitement or caffeine. or both.

i wake up late. i got to the office late. not a good start.

i decided to buy galaxy fit e last night. so i check out and wait for it in excitement.

i was checking on twitter after lunch and i saw this

shoot. he was my high school friend. i check his profile, he's been inactive and just comback since yesterday.

Seno was sceptical about it in the beginning. meanwhile i'm worry to sick. i don't know what to do. we don't have suicide hotline. i only read article from Into the Light on what to do when you have suicidal friend.

i was crying when i talk to him through DMs. idk what he's been through but it feels hard. it looks awful. God know what happen. 

i was in relief when he sound better. idk if he fake it. i really hope he got better.

i would never think that far. i was "why don't you take this seriously?" later i feel his concern. its normal cause he does not know him. thats a normal reaction. i'm glad i have him.

so the case closed for now. i think i should check on him in a week, see if he really got better.

i end the day trying my new galaxy fit e by walking home. buying cilok and soto ceker for dinner. get super full. and now ready to sleep.

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the plan

Langkah 1: Pantau aktivitas dan suasana hati

i will update everyday, talk about what i do for the day and how i feel about it. titling the post with day 1 to day 112 then rate the day and my feeling from 1 to 10 with this tag.

1: completely fine
2: okay
3: kinda upset
4: kinda sad
5: sad for a reason
6: sad for no reason but still okay
7: sad for no reason and not okay
8: terribly awful
9: empty (warning)
10: emergency call

Langkah 2: Kenali hubungan antara aktivitas tertentu dan suasana hati Anda

“aktivitas suasana hati yang lebih baik” as Joy Sparkles
“aktivitas suasana hati yang lebih jelek” as Sadness Blue

Langkah 3: Jadwalkan lebih banyak aktivitas “suasana hati lebih baik” selama minggu berikutnya

make weekly schedule for a month

Langkah 4: Seimbangkan aktivitas menyenangkan dengan pencapaian

make weekly schedule for a month

Langkah 5: Beraksi sebelum (bukannya sesudah) motivasi

Bila aktivitas di buku harian terlalu menantang pada hari tertentu, maka lakukan sesuatu yang kurang menantang tapi masih menggerakkan Anda ke arah yang membantu. Memulai pelan-pelan masih lebih baik daripada tidak memulainya sama sekali.

Untuk memelihara motivasi, tanamkan dalam pikiran manfaat jangka panjang untuk memutus siklus peningkatan penarikan diri dan perburukan depresi.

Langkah 6: Beri hadiah pada diri Anda

the schedule will be 'enjoy' and 'mission' for six days then 'reward' on sunday

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